Confession of an Addict

You remember here when I revealed I had quit smoking on Oct. 23?

Well, I'm way overdue with this confession, (what's new you say?), but I didn't last as a non-smoker.

I made it until the morning of Nov. 18th. I was on a business trip that week and bought a pack the second morning of the trip.

Believe me, you are not as disappointed as my kids were.

I will succeed one day. What about today, you ask? Isn't this the perfect time, it being the day for resolutions and such?

Call it an excuse, but it would be too cliche'. Not going to happen today because of the date on the calendar.

Am I weak? Am I addicted to nicotine? Am I the lowest?

Maybe I am. It's a mystery to me why an otherwise intelligent person would continue to do this to themself. It's not that I'm blind to how bad it is for my health. I could recite every bad thing about it, including the fact that it's not the kind of role model I want to be, (not just for my kids, but all the kids I know.)

Someday I will beat the addiction. When it happens, I'm sure I'll let you know. For now I remain....

A Pariah of Society

Comments

[Teresa]

You'll be able to do it someday. When conditions are right - you won't have to make a "resolution" you'll just do it. Many people are likely banging their heads and saying "no it doesn't work that way" but really it does.

I don't happen to be a smoker - but I would never tell someone else what they "should" do. Just as I hate it went people tell me I "should" do certain things. I figure if you're an adult, you can figure it out yourself.

But in the meantime - until you hit that moment where it all clicks together and you are able to stop. Just relax and know that it will happen when you're ready. Have a terrific New Year!

[DC]

A wonderful New Year to you and yours Teresa!

I'm working in the background here on additions and changes to the blog. But, I think it's time to go home and spend New Year's with the Hubby.

Both the kids are going to youth group activities, so we'll actually have the place to ourselves! Very unusual.

DC